GRANT MAIERHOFER / SOLLERS DOCUMENT
A body his & swelling having himself distended thus protruding thus something somesuch thus & wanting freedom wanting a dead America wanting a lifeless America wanting the America in which he’d breathed to exist somehow someway in what wasn’t some ugly horrid putrid swamp, some horrid putrid body. His body H.’s body some horrid putrid body within America & no family’s progress his family dead & everyone dead relentless dead their bodies dead their thinking dead their worship dead he wanted every limb of them in trade he wanted every limb of them in his buried & pressed together no hope no comfort no love no murder no America no city no redolent pissrot swamp dying putrid sick art dying no living only dying putrid sickening swamp & walking wandering his feet wandering his feet below him jutting & movement needing movement needing freedom one arm nearly wholly gone the rest of him rotting the blackrot spreading not caring wandering drinking from gas station drinking from whatever existed drinking from energy drinking from cup from can from bottle swelling his guts chewing on tobacco leaves rotting swelling & sweltering Les Journées de Florbelle discovered rotting buried his only comfort H.’s only comfort sleeping burying himself in text Charenton rotting doctors here to help you doctors here to help him reading the endless railing against the void his only friend his only father but for the worm but for the birds but for the swill wandering endless mall wandering asleep in waking feeling his body thus & pushing feeling thus & welcoming the prospect of death digging up every corpse digging up every American corpse & laying with them rotting laying with every putrid mistake every vile anecdote every living every beaten body every broken down body everyone surrounding him & holding H. he welcomes them reading the lost manuscript rotting them holding them to his chest sobbing wet. La Chasse spirituelle clenched to chest & pressed to floor of shed staring at endless video footage bodies murdered massacred trifles for a massacre rotten putrid being human being every disgusting thought entered his head every horrid thought entered his head every catastrophe he welcomed it he welcome it in H. welcomed it & held it to him having no sense of the Americans having no desire for the Americans wanting only the ruin of living & living & living & trying. Denkwürdigkeiten eines Nervenkranken in its entirety every diary of Lewis Carroll in its entirety nothing omitted nothing plucked pulled from history only portrayed every ugliness nothing edited nothing removed nothing taken nothing gained nothing worshiped nothing hoped for nothing at all no living no wanting no desiring no portrayal The Bleeding Hand all of it destroyed for fear of judgment no judgment no hope no ideal civilization no ideal being everything wrong everything permitted everything considered everything useless the useless going moving family moving aspiring trying seeking hoping wanting & movement. Hotel in Germany Reclaimed by Nature. Statue of Buddha Being Consumed by Moss. Abandoned. Reclaimed. Abandoned. Reclaimed. Abandoned Reclaimed. Vegetation Reclaiming the Stairway in Bavaria, Germany. Sleeping city enduring moss. Moss enduring sleeping city. Being consumed & rotting. Every abandoned factory made to revel. Every living being made to revel. Everyone leaving home to sleep in open welcoming.
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To shine. Father is a powerful God, & H. may only want to see. Creepycrawl & imbibe another’s experiences. Container. The two steps of this sort does not exist. In order to suspect that a machine, that is, the name of the degree in which men live, not as in my will, so I really admire you. There’s little abrasion. A film of a man seated in a room discussing the whole of his life being & his time living & his smells & scents & then slowly making his way through the entirety of the document the saw & watching him typing this document & repeating himself & burning this document & starting over & removing his limbs slowly one by one until what’s left until he’s himself & being & rotting, miserable.
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Grant Maierhofer is the author of Clog, Gag, Flamingos and others. He lives in Idaho.